full of anger my life was
and i was enable to find a place to call home
a too big soul in a too small doll
i haved finally found myself... in the army
they show me my limits so i can know myself more
with that gift they also teach me how everything works
they decouplate all of my senses, i was finally getting bigger
then i decide that i will show them my appreciation in giving myself for them
i always know that i have it in me, that i can become a great soldier
and then the time comes
it was so disturbing, why the fuck did i do this?
then the only thing my brain could hear was BOOM
i was on the front with hope to prove my very existence and show my greatness
and then i realised. they were all human, all of them
just like me, all of them...just like me, all of them
then i looked around myself to see that i wasn`t the only one with that thought
then in my back i have just found out that there were no more exits
i can`t turn back anymore and had only one option
do what they teach me to do, and now they leave me
now that they make me do what they wanted me to do
no more regrets, no more delusion, i can't turn back, it was my choice
i wanted to fight, now this is all i have left
i can do it, i know i can, only one choice, only one thing to do, one thing to accomplish
try to show them my rage, the anger of being fooled so much
then blood was my water, flesh was my food and scream was my joy, i can survive
i don't care anymore, i am not human anymore, they shall all perish with me
sad people, fighting sad people
a so abominable show lead by unknown people
and then a tought came to my head, what if i turn myself against them?
that is exactly where the bullet pierced my most vital organ, my brain
all of that travelling, all that work, only to find the answer and die with it
my existence finished here and then the first tear came to my eye, i am not coming home.